with guilt as my bedfellow.

'The Dummies' Guide to Being Strong-

  Step1: Realise that damn bed's been made.

  Step 2: Lie on it.'

It's bitter how the fact that

You'll have to let yourself sleep sometime,

And forget, just sometimes,

Turns that opiate from relaxant to sedative,
And bravery to charlatanry.

"Let the lying dog sleep", they'll say.